Between Us

Just a wink-full of sleep
To evade the fears,
And this pluvial season
of resilient tears.

The jarring reminder
of his last words,
Imposed sleepless nights
on her weakly bod.

He glid through her phases
like an ubiquitous shadow;
And lay interwoven in her being
like a sequin tad old.

"Between us, the world doesn't
stand a chance", she thought.
"Between us, we'd make
the best", she hoped.

When he left, he left her
a glade of pain;
Left her abashed, tumultuous,
that she couldn't draw rein.

And so again she tried to catch,
Just a wink-full of sleep,
To evade the fears.

You are Beautiful.

I will shed your specious cloak
Peel off the garish mask
I will strip you naked of your ambitions
To be the cynosure of amorous eyes
I will straddle across you obdurate
And grip your face with my fingers
Till your eye-paint streaks your face
Till your lip colour smudges your cheek
With the alpenglow of your nose
I will moor you down
And grapple your greedy hands
I’ll plunge open your wanton heart
And mutilate your gaudy bias
I will be brusque and rough
And laugh at your nakedness
Then satisfied I’ll fall back
When I render you shorn
And win this sciamachy
Then I’ll look at you
Just as you are
With your anima back
You are so beautiful.

You're worth it

You’re worth the hurt,

You’re worth the pain,

You’re worth every ‘no’, from our kin.

You’re worth the painfully tough decisions,

You’re worth the chaotic confusion

Of countless voices, saying things for my good.

You’re worth every drop of my tear,

You’re worth every love that I had lost,

You’re worth giving up, the things that I held close.

You’re worth the sacrifice, 

the jibes, the scorns, & even the adjustment blues.

If that’s the small cost, so be it, just for you.

You’re worth the worrying, sleepless nights,

You’re worth the fear of losing it mid-way,

Because,
We’re worth being together, we’re resilient.

All for the hope of being with you.

My love, you’re worth it all.

“Love always protects, 

     always trusts, 

       always hopes, 

         always perseveres. 

           Love never fails.”   -Bible.

Afterall, its him!

As you walked into the hospital

To hold your bundle of joy,

What did you think dad?

What did u dream that day?

Do you remember, when carrying

a plump bag on two tiny shoulders

I had dragged my feet

to get home one day?

Its you, I had looked for

As I had entered,

To inform you about the big race

Your daughter had just lost.

I was crestfallen to

See you not bothered.

But you had your mind

On something much better.

The day I had cheated at school

& was caught by my teacher & complained to you.

I was scared & ashamed, to be heard or seen,

Because of the disgrace that I had been.

I lowered my eyes &

broke in a sweat.

You just said- ‘I have high dreams for you

This is not what I expect.’

I stood there dumbfound

I had feared you’d admonish

But this is not what I deserved

I expected to be punished.

And a few years down the line,

I had waited impatiently for you

To return from office, to hand you

my certificate, beaming with joy.

You planted a kiss on my forehead

& u patted my back.

I had felt like an Oscar winner

That night, amidst thunderous claps!

You took a long look

& with pride filled eyes u said,

‘You’ll go a long way, my girl

You’ll go higher some day.’

And that day when on hearing noises

Into the kitchen I ran,

To see you & mother fight,

I cried to having seen such a sight.

The very next morning I was astonished

To see you hug mom & say ‘sorry’

& I knew I wanted someone like u father,

In my own love story.

As you’ll walk me down the aisle some day

and place my hand in another’s,

You’ll still be my favourite hero, dad,

You’ll always be my first love.

The Date.

She flung open her cupboard doors

Looked up-down & across the width

Rummaged through a couple of shelves

To see if that perfect dress was hid beneath.

She walked around her room, sighed aloud-

“Why don’t I ever have anything to wear?”

She went back to her open cupboard again,

& looked at her collection in despair.

Then her eyes fell on the blue flowing gown

Which she delicately from the top shelf, brought down

She smiled and caressed its silky smooth frills,

It was her sweet sixteenth birthday gift.

She slipped into it & made sure it fit right

She stood before the mirror & sprayed a whiff of perfume

And after hours & hours of make-up & touch-ups

She had finally got the look, she assumed.

She heard his footsteps & went out to meet

But one thing was missing, her nail paint wasn’t fine

He held the door & took her by hand

And like a queen, he led her out to dine.

He looked at her, he had a sparkle in his eyes

“You’re looking gorgeous sweety”, he smiled.

She smiled coyly & thought to herself,

“What do you know honey, of the hardwork 

                                      put into this ensemble?”

Ruffled..

Singing aloud all day long

All your irritations, grumblings & groans

"Fun!" it seems to you

and you smile in pleasure.

To give others tension

trouble & tribulation.

Without bothering how it affects

those it targets!

Its all your moodplay

and very subtle 'quotations',

your single indirect remark

your slight hint-ation.

That sets my mind ringing

digging into all past memories

     -bad, bitter & rude

reverberating in thoughts,

culminating in a torrential downpour!

Come back.......no more.

I've done my share of mistake

I've had my share of heart-break.

Leave me now, don't come back

Don't spoil my present with my past.

As you had smothered

my identity in yours,

Now don't curb again the freedom

I have gained,

                      losing you.

From clasping of hands

               to grabbing my wrist.

From 'miss you' calls

               to slamming of phones.

From 'our story'

               to 'your things'.

You had asked - if I'd love you,

and I had risked my all on you!

The day you flung your coat,

The times you lied,

The moments I held back explaining

what I hated about you, why?

As you walked away, jerking aside my hand

Not turning back

                                not even once,

I stared at your receding shadow,

hoping against hope,

my eyes full of love & tears, 

I knew you wouldn't come &

I knew I wouldn't call.

You've lost it again,

                  now you've lost it for good.

I dare not dare myself a second time,

and I know it'll not be you.